I'm on Facebook a lot. I'm out and about a lot. I pop up in random cities without warning, and I produce a lot of off-spring appropriately named "_______ Reign."
As a result, my door is always open for a great deal of shadoobee. After 5 years in drag it becomes clear that the more well known and successful you are, the more people are going to dislike you. I remember when I was young, unknown, and carefree! ::sighs happily:: I slapped untidy black facial hair to my blonde sideburns, but life was calm and quiet. Sometimes I long for the days of binding with a sports bra and saran wrap and the internal comfort (and external discomfort) that those days brought. ;)
Five years later people will either love you or hate you (or in this case "me") and that's okay. I can't stand Nicholas Cage. I boycott movies the man is in, even though Ghost Rider is my favorite Marvel Comic character of all time. It hurts, but it's for the best. You could just as easily love Nick Cage and think The Wicker Man and City of Angels are 2 of the world's best movies ever. I shrug and agree to disagree. Profusely.
I'm not going to stop putting myself out there because this is who I am. I like being in touch with people, meeting new kings, helping people, working with the public. I'm not going to stop doing Kings For A Cause or any of the other events I do because there are some naysayers or shadoobee-talkers out there. It took some time to build up, but I have a thick skin and regardless of what any one person or group of people think about me I know that what I think about me - what I know about me - is far more important.
I'd rather be chatted about than forgotten. I'm not going to stop FBing or being Anson Reign, ever. The positive experiences I've had along this road far outweigh the negative, and people's words and opinions can't hurt you unless you let them. Sometimes its tough to shake things off, but I put myself out there and as a result I am vulnerable to attack. If I really minded, I think I'd retreat and hide. But I don't mind. I like who I am. And just as I don't have to like Mr. Cage, you don't have to like me either.
I do my best to treat everyone with respect. Even people who like to be cruel for cruelty's sake still get a dollar from me while they're onstage. A dollar I could have used for gum.
I'm not the most amazing person in the world. I'm not the best drag king in the world. I'm not the most terrific girlfriend in the world, nor the best singer or actor in the world. I'm not the best writer, or the most fabulous chef...but when you stop looking at the things I'm not and you add everything I am together, it turns out that even though I may not be the best, I'm not that bad at all.
And that ain't no shadoobee.
Peace & love -